So Obviously....

I haven't been blogging here in a few days. As can be suspected this means I haven't been doing very well w/my diet. I've fallen off the wagon most days this last week. I'm back to eating at Spanky's and having ice cream and Snickers w/hot chocolate. UGH! When will this crap stop? I hate how it just gets into my head..."Oh you could go eat at Spanky's...that would be yummy & easy"! UGH! And then I just OBSESS about it & OBSESS about it until I give in. I hate this!
So in an attempt to circumvent this I've set myself a new goal...I want to lose 20 pounds in the next 6 weeks (the end of September) and then I will go do a zipline! YAY! My doctor is helping me in this attempt as when I told him this he told me he wants to see me back in 6 weeks to see how I've done.
I'm also thinking of joining a weight loss competition...it's a $25 cost to join. It's from August 29th until the day before Thanksgiving. You win the total proceeds. I've kicked ass doing this before & maybe I could again. It'll be a good goal/reward for me to work towards obtaining my goal of Onederland before the end of the year.
I wish there was a therapist I could see around here who specializes in food issues. That's the only problem of living in a small town...not much access to special services. Oh well, maybe a regular therapist can help. I had a band placed around my stomach not my head so I still have all the food issues I did before, the same food addiction, the same food obsessions.
Hoping to get better w/my diet & exercise (went for a walk today). Hoping to keep posting on here because it helps keep me honest even if no one reads it. I'm glad I've found some groups/people on FaceBook that are banded so it's a good support system.
Well signing off for tonight, hope all is well with the world.
~Raena