So, my workplace is like the worst place for anyone trying to diet. I went in last night and on the kitchen counter was Strawberry Cake with Strawberry Frosting!!! Oh my God...add a glass of milk and I'd be in heaven, that's like my favorite kind of cake. So I thought to myself, what am I gonna do...that's way too many points!!! It's way too many points to even think about, it may be costing me points just to look at it!! So what I did was I took the cake and put it on the table in the dining room where you can't see it with the kitchen door open, got my cottage cheese and lean cuisine and ate my diner!! Go Me!
~Raena
Monday, January 28, 2008
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Scales
So I've decided I'm a little obsessed with weighing myself. It's the first thing I do when I wake up in the morning, and then I do it numerous other times during the day. So I just called my sister and asked her to hide it when she gets home and only give me it on Saturdays before my meetings, so I can see how they correlate.
I feel so much better on Weight Watchers, I feel like I'm happier, more alert, just more everything. I feel like I'm making a positive change in my life and like my mother is watching over me and is SO proud of me. I feel no desire to cheat because I can have anything I want as long as I record it and account for it. I've not once so far eaten anything I haven't written down.
Today I woke up around lunch time. Let me explain that...I work midnights, so on my days off I tend to keep to that schedule a bit and stay up late and sleep in. I was up til 2:30 watching Zodiac (which was excellent) then I played on the computer, reading lap band blogs and playing a computer game until 4 am. I did, however, manage to sleep through Britt tell me she was going to P-Burg and through my alarm clock (which worries me, afraid I'll do it for work). Anyways, back to what I was gonna say. I got up and had 2 Turkey Sandwhiches for 3 points each, a 1/2 cup of Cottage Cheese for 3 points, 1/2 cup Blackberries and 1/2 cup of Cool Whip Free for 1 point and glass of Light Cranberry Juice for 1 point. 11 points for my lunch, with 29 left. I may have something again before work, or I'll just save them all for there because that's where I tend to graze.
So I'm gonna end this post with some music lyrics:
"Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cableAnd life's like an hourglass, glued to the tableNo one can find the rewind button, girl.So cradle your head in your handsAnd breathe... just breathe,Oh breathe, just breathe"
That's what I'm gonna do, just breathe, day in and and day out.
I feel so much better on Weight Watchers, I feel like I'm happier, more alert, just more everything. I feel like I'm making a positive change in my life and like my mother is watching over me and is SO proud of me. I feel no desire to cheat because I can have anything I want as long as I record it and account for it. I've not once so far eaten anything I haven't written down.
Today I woke up around lunch time. Let me explain that...I work midnights, so on my days off I tend to keep to that schedule a bit and stay up late and sleep in. I was up til 2:30 watching Zodiac (which was excellent) then I played on the computer, reading lap band blogs and playing a computer game until 4 am. I did, however, manage to sleep through Britt tell me she was going to P-Burg and through my alarm clock (which worries me, afraid I'll do it for work). Anyways, back to what I was gonna say. I got up and had 2 Turkey Sandwhiches for 3 points each, a 1/2 cup of Cottage Cheese for 3 points, 1/2 cup Blackberries and 1/2 cup of Cool Whip Free for 1 point and glass of Light Cranberry Juice for 1 point. 11 points for my lunch, with 29 left. I may have something again before work, or I'll just save them all for there because that's where I tend to graze.
So I'm gonna end this post with some music lyrics:
"Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cableAnd life's like an hourglass, glued to the tableNo one can find the rewind button, girl.So cradle your head in your handsAnd breathe... just breathe,Oh breathe, just breathe"
That's what I'm gonna do, just breathe, day in and and day out.
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Sad and Happy News
Sadly, after 6 long months in the hospital my mother lost her fight with her disease and passed away January 1oth. I will miss her the rest of my life.
For Happy News, I have learned that you are not guaranteed a tomorrow so do today what you want to do, so I am recommited to my weight loss. I have not been being a good banded person, I've only had one fill, and ate terribly at the hospital....lots and lots of cookies. I was back at my highest weight. Let's just say I'm too embarrased to even go see my surgeon for a fill. So I've joined Weight Watchers to try and get my weight down about 30 - 40 pounds and then go see my surgeon. I had tried Weight Watchers online with no success, but now I'm actually going to meetings and I really like it. This was my second week and I've lost 8.8 pounds (It was 12 at my house, but I ate breakfast before weigh in, I won't do that again...I want to get a 10 pound sticker!!!) I did however earn a 5 pound sticker, and got a Bravo sticker for not having a regular soda in a week (from a 4 pepsi a night habit!). I really like getting stickers, I'm so the second grader I know.
I'm doing WW with 2 of my cousins, and my sister is going to eat better, and cook some WW meals. (However I think maybe if I keep up my good weight loss, maybe she jump on the meetings bandwagon, seeing as she's getting married in 9 months) If I was doing it with just my sister I'd maybe try and talk her out of it, and miss meetings, or quit, but I won't even try that with my cousins.
I think after I lose the weight and get some fills, I'll switch to the Core Plan, where you don't count points, but eat from a list of foods and just eat until you're full. So everyone please wish me good luck on this venture.
And mama, keep an eye on me and give me a cosmic kick in the arse if I fall off the wagon! I love you and miss you!
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